Today, I love...
My sweet 4-year-old's excitement about his birthday (happy 4th birthday, little guy!), his newfound love for ninja turtles, H's sweet "I love you's" when I change his stinky diaper (always makes me smile, even when cleaning his poop!), G's mischievous laugh and mullet hairdo, and the way little B walks with his hands up and twirls them around when he cries. I love how B gets excited to clap his hands. I love how they dance. I love how they run. I love their joyful spirits.
I was listening to Gary Allan's new song the other day, "Pieces". I have never been a huge Gary Allan fan, but his last two songs have resonated with me at the exact moments that I needed some comfort. His previous song called "Every Storm (Runs Out of Rain)" gave me hope as I went through the sad transition into a new house, away from my three little loves. It's true, every storm does run out of rain. This too shall pass. Well, that storm has indeed passed. I have given it up to God and am trusting in His perfect plan. Gary Allan's newest song, "Pieces", has yet again struck a cord with me:
Nothing's perfect in this world
Everybody's been burned by the fire
Guess I'm learning
That what breaks you, makes you grow
Pieces of my heart
Pieces of my soul
Pieces that I'm gonna be, I don't even know
I gave a lot to lovers
Gave a lot to friends
Everything I took from them, made me who I am
I will always love those three precious babies. My heart broke when I left them because I felt like they were mine. God reminded me that they never were. They belong to Him. They have a perfect Father in Heaven; I know they'll be just fine. They have taught me so much; I will never be the same. The time I spent with them will be treasured forever. They have left a permanent imprint on my heart.
With each passing day, I fall more in love with these new children. I know that God wants me to love them with the same passion that I gave to A, J, and M. So, each day, I remind myself how blessed I am to spend my days with these amazing kids. I focus on their sweet smiles and pour out my love to them. It's a good life.
“Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” - Hebrews 4:16
